What, to the Black girl, is Freedom?

What to the Black girl is Independence Day?

Is it for me?

Is freedom for me?

In a land where Bill Cosby roams free

In a world where nobody looks after me

 

Who’s going to look after me?

Who’s going to look after the Black girls?

Do I celebrate the plot to tear me apart…

Take me down

Take my heart

Bash my likeness

Steal my brightness

 

Gripping my truth so tightly

A country that hates me so loudly

Takes advantage of my strength

Makes me a superhero and never pays rent

Tires me yet never quenches my thirst

Reaches for every bill in my purse

 

A country, a people, a community

That blames me…for everything

A union so profoundly against me 

That they could murder me in my sleep

And blame me

That they could sell out my children to the streets

And blame me

That they could burn my opportunities on every Black wall street

And still. Blame. Me

 

Where is freedom to the Black girl?

When getting in the car takes all the prayer I can muster

To think I could never make it home, dead next to my muffler

When waking up for work means I hide

Every Black ass part of me, especially my backside

When running means I have to cope perfectly

And judgement is right around the curve of the track

Yet no one gives me an alternative or has my back

 

What is protection to the Black girl?

When even my own brothers hate to be kind

When even they gaslight and undo and unwind

The threads of loyalty and respect and pride

The places where they should 

Every bus stop every hood

Every doctor’s office

And corporate office

And HOA office

And legislation office

And…every office

What to the Black girl is safe?

When my hair turns up the nose on everyone’s faces

When my nails are the topic of every conversation

When my skin gets scrutinized for its warmth

My hips are demonized for their charm

My speech is villainized for its dialect

All things that we thought would be protected

 

What to the Black girl is Independence Day?

When every time I reach for freedom, it’s burned away.

-Kristen Marie